I don't understand

Why did every single guy from my primary school turn into a lad?
Why did every single girl turn into a slut or some strange bogan living in strange outer suburbs, livin' it up in their trackies and such?

I only mention this because today I was on the bus and I saw this fellow who I had not seen for years and he goes to Wesley now. Lawl. And he was talking very obnoxiously loudly about some sort of graffiti and then booze, from what I heard. Why is our generation so weird?
Also I am not saying this in a serious tone. This amuses me beyond belief.

In any case, I am going to paint a picture and then go off and have a lovely night at Alex's, free of lads and bogans. Wonderful.

my jumper has cats on it and I am never taking it off again

I certainly have no desire to go back to school, like any sane human being. Although I'm in slight shock that I've actually done about half of my holiday homework.

I realised today I quite like the State Library.
Also even when I was alone for a short period of time walking up Brunswick St, I was listening to Revolver and I felt strangely happy which was nice.
Aside from the best jumper in the world I bought a sketch book today. I have been in need of one I can just whip out anywhere and not have people staring at some massive drawing if I'm on the bus or something.
That makes me quite happy.
The thought of school makes me not happy.
But on another note, the 14th of May, being a Saturday night, will make me very very happy I think. k done

king of the beach is the soundtrack to my life okay

I absolutely love the fact I've been listening to Wavves constantly oh wow they pump me up so much
my music has seriously just been Sarah Smiles > Wavves > rest of Vices & Virtues > Like 2 mcr songs
THEN REPEAT THAT LIKE 7029843 TIMES ugh what is my life

Hi okay today was so so so so great there are no words I am just a bit happy now because of it okay goodbye

my hair is the colour of those weird purple grapes

You know those grapes you'll see sitting on your dining table and you're all
What
What is this
What an ugly colour for grapes to be
Like why would I even want to eat you

Well my hair is like that.
EXCEPT BRIGHTAAAA

EVERYONEEE LISTEN TO THE NEW WOMBATS ALBUM

It's really quite brilliant, so far. I think.

Oh my god I've been so bored like the past couple days and I haven't been bothered to do anything oh god so lazy. I seriously need to do work. Just as soon as I finish some lovely Stephen King. I can't stop reading this horror stuff srsly fuck.

LOL OKAY FOUND SOMETHING TO DO BRB ORDERING MCR MERCH FROM THEIR WEBSITE

I have spent more time on public transport than at home.

So much going to and from places. Oh my god. I want to stay home and just wrap myself in various blankets and stay on tumblr all day. But alas I hate it when people cancel last minute when I have not seen them in a long time, so therefore I will have to leave the house tomorrow. Dramatic sigh.

Last, last night was so wonderful I wanted to cry a bit omg. Imogen Heap was actually one of the best things of my life. No exaggeration at all. And the niceness of Alo's room makes me so happy and mildly jealous that she is so cool with her fairy lights n' all.

And last night was also rather enjoyable I suppose. It was not precisely what I expected. And some people are such obnoxious drunks it's really unpleasant. Not anyone in particular, just a generalization coughmartincough. I don't even know why he was there. No one think I am friends with him. He is ugly. And i onlii have preetty friendz xoxo Also he munted in the middle of the path brick area thing. Which is just impolite. Lawl.

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mhm okay well I want to die slightly I think
but y'know I always have those kinds of thoughts at the back of my mind
not ever going to be put into action or anything
but
I am so fed up
I am so sick of everything
I have no urge to do anything with my life ugh
I really don't know how to handle my emotions anymore ffff
Oh my blog is just the worst
If you're silly and you're reading this please do not be concerned by this at all because this is not some new exciting developement or anything k.

The sky is always falling down on me

I woke up at like 6:30 because I am having really messed up and frightening dreams again ! Fun ! I just listened to Dresden Dolls all morning and attempted to type a response to a really drunken inbox that states really awkward things. Oh well.
I am in such a weird position with this person. I've met them like once and it's so strange and djkslhakjs everything is irrelevant because they're so attractive but ohmyfuck it's like the first time in ages I've been genuinely concerned about what someone thinks about me. Lawl fuck ma lyf.

YESTERDAY WAS GR8 LUV FRANI N' SHIT. We ripped things off her wall and did antisocial things like use the internet and watch me play guitar badly ! Yay !
Frani takes too many photos of me. I think she is secretly attracted to me idk just a hunch

I am sobbing so hard right now ohmyfuckinggod

I have been sobbing for like the past 10 minutes from laughing so hard oh my god. This is too much. I cannot handle 'Babyghirl Desamparado' and her stupid friends and this ridiculous photos and ajskldfhjlakshfsldk EVERYTHING IS SO FUNNY

I have absolutely nothing to say. Sewww weird. I bet multiple people clicked on this thinking that I was being like I AM SOBBING RIGHT NOW OMG I HATE MY LIFEEEEEE. Or something. Seriously? I am not that awful. Am I? Awks. I feel self-conscious now.

keep your hopes up high and your head down low

Oh well that was an actually spectacular 4 days.
Consisting of Skrillex, Pokemon/various video games, drawing and Black Books. Holy fuck I love Black Books. So funny I cried like 5 times djhklsahdlkjs not even kidding
I don't know what to say about my mood
anyway I must go and bus into the city and eat food with that weird Caitlin girl. Yeah idk I'm like forced to hang out with her? sooooooo weirdddd :(((((

Having Skrillex playing whilst cleaning my room makes everything more EXTREEEMEEEE

Oh my god I have gotten totally back into Skrillex this week ugh he's so beautiful. That's irrelevant to his music but uh yeah okay

People disgust me, sometimes. Human beings are so shallow and deceitful and cruel. Okay so there are also really lovely people. But that is why I like being at my beach house. No one exists there. I don't have to think about how utterly revolting the state of the world is right now, and the people who occupy it. I can just not focus on...nothing.
It's pretty brill.

Brb for like 4 days. Unless I can get reception down there. Which I doubt it highly.

gerard way is 34 today

And he still looks fucking wonderful. omg wat


Inexplicably shit morning !
Now I have eaten a large amount of ice cream and spent too long playing Zelda and on tumblr. I found this lovely dress with weird triangles of random patterns all over it and it's so fucking weird and I love it. I got it like 4 years ago and hated it but lolwhateverchangedmymind -shrugs-

Hopefully tonight will be slightly alright even though it is the strangest mix of people ever. Seriously. Ah well I do not care. I am grateful to leave my house for an amount of time.

Holiday checklist.

1. Get a haircut and dye my hair in some way or another
2. Actually get holiday homework out of the way earlier rather than later
3. Get out of the house as much as possible, even it is for one of those awkward parties where I only know like one person dsjhkglajfs
4. Hang out with people I used to see a lot more
5. Hang out with people who I am becoming much better friends with this year
6. Buy moar clothing lawl
7. Go to Imogen Heap and sob at how amazing she is
8. Pierce my ears. It must be done
9. Clean my room and redo some of my walls because they're ugly and stuff
10. Paint and draw and create lots of nice things that I can be proud of
11. Spontaneously be ridiculously nice to Frani on a random 'Frani is awesome' day because I am cruel to her
12. Relevant to 12. Attempt to dress like less of an emo kid
13. Improve guitar skills !
14. Really hopefully get to go to my dad's house and I will be beyond happy. Throw a fucking huge party in honor of my new found love for that house.
15. Be a generally happier person

"You've got STACKS of space ! Come on ! You can do it ! ... Fucking idiots."

Utterly ridiculous ! Oh the shenanigans that occur when that crazy bitch is driving your PE bus and she is so insane she decides to scream at every car that did something slightly wrong. Seriously though. What a frightening lady.

Camille: "Oh watch out, those cars are doing something slightly against the law!"
-bus driver glances around-
Frani: "DON'T MOVE. DON'T TALK. DON'T EVEN BREATHE."

Ha. I don't want to exist anymore. I am debating whether I should bother resubmitting this piece of work to get a better grade, but I am terribly lazy. I am going to go study for a math test which I will fail like everything else I try and do. This week has been pretty bad for no apparent reason.

bike relay bike relay bike relay

So much enjoyment out of today. Easiest sport ever. And people are so so nice. Listening to Panic the majority of the day made my life. Also drawing on Anna's legs. And my legs. And everyone. In general. And sitting at the bus stop for like an hour and catching up on @ll d@ g0ss !!! And having a well meaningful conversation with Thea for the entirety of the bus ride while she sat in a really strange position. Then going home and feeling slightly miserable about myself but aside from that, rather brilliant day.
I like this. I think I will be happy over the holidays. So long as I am not alone for long periods of time. Maybe I will be alright in the future. I hope. Soon.

rah rah rah bad day n' stuff

But it is alright because I am going to do nothing except play mindless video games for the rest of the night. Not doing homework. Teachers can eat me. Don't even care. I am such a reb. Wow. Formspring is ridiculous. I am tired. I feel sick.

Anyone want to play a fun game? Scroll through my blog and count the number of times I've said tired and sick ! No but seriously don't. That'd just be embarrassing for me. Don't. Please. Ugh. I feel ill. Ha ! I'm mixin' it up a bit.

WHAT IS THIS BLOG ENTRY? WHAT IS THIS? WHY AM I TALKING LIKE THIS? I AM INSANE. I AM MORE THAN INSANE. I AM GOING TO GO BACK TO VIDEO GAMES. GAHJKGHSDKJLF CAPS LOCK ! GOODBYE.

I am so exhausted it is ridiculous

My weekend was pleasant.
I have nothing horrifying to be currently nervous about in the future. No strange conversations to be had, no frightening assignments due. This is strange. I do not know what this feeling is.
Grace and Frani are lovely. Dinner at bmac was lovely. Today was also nice. I was slightly concerned that Tash would've become an awful person in the past 8 months but she has not and she is still rather great.

I am going to go walk my dog and contemplate piercing my tongue some more and feel sleepy and continue to have a headache from eating too many lollies and such. Goodbye.

I close itunes but the Wombats are stuck on repeat. lolwut.

I feel terribly ill right now and I don't want tomorrow to exist but it does. Yet at the same time I think I'll feel a lot better once it's over and I'll be slightly happier and stuff and that's just brilliant, I guess.

Also my dad managed to sell his house and that makes me so impossibly happy because I want to go to our new house more than anything. I may or may not have mentioned that before like 20 times but I'm going to say it again. I am very sick of this house. I repeat myself a lot. Go away.