I want to just crawl up in a corner and be forgotten by everyone

Why does everything make me so upset
My parents make so angry
They're making me angry right now
Especially him. You are so motherfucking ignorant of every single thing that is wrong with me right now and I just want to scream and cry and yell at you until you fucking understand whatever the fuck is wrong with me. I don't understand why neither of them will actually try and listen to what I'm saying or actually ask me if I want to talk about anything. They just hand the problem onto someone else. They treat me like I'm a ten year old. I hate hate hate hate hate it and I just want to be at my dad's where nothing matters and he's so much less patronizing and unfair. Fuck. This is such an angry blog. You're welcome to stop reading here because I'm going to keep writing things and rant some more.
I can't stand myself. Seriously. Why do I have to pity myself all the time? Why can I just not compare myself to everyone else and just be fucking happy with my life? I hate how I feel like I'm just going to be alone forever and no one will actually be there. No one will ever be there to completely understand me and listen to me and care about me and actually love me more than anything else. It feels like I'll be stuck with this fucking depressed feeling for the rest of my life and you know what? It fucking sucks. These past 7 months have fucking sucked. On a personal level. Don't get me wrong. I really really adore my friends and everything, but if I'm not distracted by something, I can't handle anything. I just want to give up on everything and just sleep and never ever wake up because everything just sucks. That's how I see it.

I do apologize if you just read through all that.