I am angry and tired and upset

I contemplate deleting this blog
it is nothing but the same shit every day
but alas, that is how I feel
I cannot help but write about it
and complain about it

Fuck fuck fuck I wish I knew how to express myself through words
like,
talking
I'm so bad at it

I'm so bad at everything
everything in my life
I can't keep track of anything
I make other people worry
I am a pointless waste of things
I feel so out of place all the time
I don't see why my existence is necessary
I don't see the point in anything
And it sucks