I'm really terrible

BEFORE I GET INTO A BORING RANT
I'm totally cutting my hair like a boy everyone
Like a boy. Totally goin' for da pixie cut lawlzz. H8rs gonna h8 omg xoxo

Oh guys by the way me and Frani are fucking amazing at self-defence now so you can all fuck off or u gon get bashed !!1!!!lol!!!11!!1!!!!one!!!
I'd write other amusing things from school but I remember absolutely nothing aside from the fact I could barely keep my eyes open for the majority of the day.

lol u cn stop readin now xoxo lolzzz

I must say I don't really know what to do with myself. I have absolutely no motivation for certain types of school work. Or just a lot of things, in general. I actually have no drive. Whatsoever. It frightens me. I can't handle deadlines at all. I just make up some exotic lie about how my work is late and assume it's going to be alright. I've gotten into an awful habit of doing that so frequently now. It's slightly pathetic that I can't just do my fucking work already. I'm really really trying my best but my mind is always in other places and I can't focus on anything and I tend to dwell on everything else that is terrible about life. For a start I don't even know why I feel so bad all the time and
holy fuck I'm rambling here. I hate that I rant so much about myself too. I hate to bore you. But I have nowhere else to vent.

On a note that doesn't revolve around me for once on my stupid blog, I love Grace a lot and I really hope she is alright. Very much so. Also her hair is lovely and she shouldn't cut it because she is such a qt pie omg

I'm actually going to finish my German homework now, 4 hours overdue, and have some elaborate excuse as to why I'm unable to comply with a deadline.
Fuck.