let me blog about anna

I want to do what Grace said as well ok yeah

So last night was really nice because we played Scattergories and Anna seemed really happy to see me and Lac and Jodie and Katherine which was really nice and I drew her Ryan Ross and nice tumblr people told me things to tell her and she cried and then I felt bad but it was happy crying so yeah

Today was nice too because Alo and I went to get coffee but we got there really early so we sat on the porch for about an hour and Alo forced me to listen to Beyonce sigh

Once we went in we played Scattergories again and cried because it's the funne

st game in the world I swear to god omfg

And then Alo had to go so Anna and I watched Live In Phoenix and I almost cried because Fall Out Boy yeah

Then later Jordan and Ed showed up and Ed was loud and I felt sort of bad for Anna because he's loud and so nice and stuff but loud and yeah

Jordan was nice and he brought posters and the new issue of AP for her and then we played Scattergories again and we answered an entire round with Pete Wentz jokes which was so funny omfg

then we talked about a lot of things for like an hour idk and Jordan and I told Anna about amusing tumblr things she'd missed and she laughed so hard she cried

Then I felt really bad for leaving because she looked kind of out of it but yeah

then Jordan sent me this picture idk why

I'm worried about Anna and stuff but yeah sigh I really really really hope she feels better because she's been through so much shit and yeah hm

I told her I'd come back on Monday night with more drawings so idek if I'm going to end up doing anything on Halloween and I'm sort of okay with that, really

I mean I'd like to socialize but I sort of cannot be bothered hm

idk is not having a title for your post the new cool thing???
anyway hey here's a lesson learnt from the past two weeks

bottling everything up is really really bad

really bad

it makes everything so much worse and I love my friends and I want them to be happy too and I just need to talk to them and yeah idk I really do hate talking though but very bad things happen when I don't talk to people? Sigh contradictions

I'm going to go drink ALL THE JUICE HA HAH AOSDHLDJF!!!!

it's late and I'm tired

deep dramatic emo sigh followed by hair flick

idk why do i blog

I’m so used to not doing work these days I just don’t know how to do it anymore. It’s really weird idk my work ethic has become so bad I need someone like guiding me along with all my work and it’s really awful hm. I’m doing my passage analysis now and it’s going rather well so hopefully I’ll get a handle on how to work and do things well before next year oops if I don't I'm fuCKED

sometimes bandom is the only thing I love

oooo look contrasting posts!!!! idk I love you grace

three more weeks jesus christ YES THREE MORE FUCKING WEEKS

idk um things

Hm I have a lot of thoughts but it's three am and I'm not willing to share them with anyone and I probably should because bottling things up is how things go wrong but I'm not sure

I'm hungry actually I'm going to go make something delicious goodbye

tonight was shit and then fun

yesternight was really nice and fun minus the shit parts of tonight

yep

ok my life is just one fucking huge soap opera if this was a tv show I'd be laughing right now

but sadly yeah no ok I've never been this angry in my whole life wow ok wow I don't know what to do aside from throw myself off the top off a building

(☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞

well

tonight was perfect yeah I love the wombats hmm it was sort of really what I needed because shit sort of sucks and this made me feel happy

I'm hungry but also extremely exhausted and sleep wins out in this situation

jesus christ I love the wombats seriously I LOVE THEM they are a perfect band

I do not love the girl who was in front of me half of the night with the frizzy hair though

that was frustrating and uncomfortable hm if I'd had a razor on me I would've shaved it all off haha!!!!

idk why I said that I'm tired ok yeah goodnight

it's hot

why is it hot

why can't I have pasta for breakfast I'm craving pasta

why are there two flies in my room being loud

I just woke up

why are there two

my paramore poster fell down hm someone should pick that up

and put it in the bin

there are still two flies in my room

I should get up and do something about that

I'm hungry

I'm excited for tonight but I'm also extremely lazy

I'm also excited

there are two empty spaces on my pokemon card wall and it's making me really frustrated WHERE DID THE CARDS GO

the photos right next to my bed keep coming off and I'm feeling frustrated some more

I'm really hungry

bye

Sigh I'm sorry

Blogging is like a really awful drug I can't kick ok

I just enjoy it for some sick sad reason idk it's amusing leave me alone

So here's what happened in the space of time I wasn't blogging

- The Academy Is... broke up and everything sucks now and really it does because I thought there would be a 4th album and I have this list of things I have to do before I die and see TAI live was at the top of that list and WELL THAT'S NOT HAPPENING NOW IS IT

- Things happened and I want people to be happy yeah

- I saw Caitlin today and that was fab omg

- I'm being sent to a psychologist and I'm going to be put on ADs wow that was blunt I'm not good at being blunt be proud of me I know you don't care I just wanted to get that out in the open uh

- I'm currently soaking this potato in butter

Hate me if you want but I love butter

Butter is reason for life

Butter is just as great as William Beckett

Did I really just say that

Today I got home and was happy then I looked at photos of TAI and cried and cried and then drew a picture!!!

It was Gabe Saporta's 32nd birthday yesterday

But he's still perfect I don't understand

oops i'm deleting this blog bye

no wait i changed my mind within 5 seconds ok i'm keeping it and not posting things

bye

I'm not very consistent with my happiness
or my emotions in general
or anything
hmm I wish I could disappear for a while that'd be nice

Counter Revolution

Hi that was the best day/night of my life I think most likely

So we were like on our feet all day and we didn't get signings from Panic or All Time Low but I got to meet The Damned Things and I lost my shit man I was just sobbing like crazy and Joe and Andy I jstu ihorieuasfdhfukerhkflu oh yngmdso god

And I forgot to drink water like the whole day so I had this headache just subtly there for a while and then we got into the mosh for Story Of The Year and they were surprisingly really good even though I don't like them an insane amount

and then I started to get dehydrated and I was like lol shit!!!! And All Time Low were fab even though I thought I was going to die towards the end of their set

and DRUGS came on and I was like 'shit nigga I'm actually going to pass out' and I kept putting my head on Grace's/Jordan's shoulder and like sleeping for a second and I was like 'omfg I'm going to get taken out of here before Panic come on' but then they came on and ok

I just

screamed and cried so hard oh my god I was actually crying like on and off the whole damn set god knows why I'm such a faggot but yeah there you have it

It was literally the most amazing thing of my life because look they just mean so much to me and well yeah even though we didn't get to meet them I am just so fucking happy and grateful I actually got to see them you have no idea

also I yelled when this happened