and I'm stressed already. What the fuck.
More than anything I'm kind of ridiculously freaked out because I might have a drum lesson tomorrow and I haven't practiced all holidays. And I can't find my book so I couldn't even practice now if I wanted to.
Fuuuuuck.
BUT I HAVE A MAC. THIS IS NICE
I've spent the whole weekend feeling utterly disgusting and depressed and getting terrible dreams again. And then mildly happier for the small amounts of time my computer is on, in between the awfulness of its frequent crashing. I'm going to kill someone if I don't get my laptop tomorrow.
Listening to My Chemical Romance and All Time Low on repeat all weekend. Because I can.
Guys oh my god I'm so torn. It just occured to me if I go to Cobra Starship in May, WHAT IF MY CHEM/ALL TIME LOW/FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS/ETC. ANNOUNCE A TOUR AFTER THAT CONCERT? AND THEN MY MUM WILL BE ALL "BUUUT YOU JUST WENT TO THAT OTHER ONE IN MAY. YOU CAN'T GO TO ANOTHER ONE !" JLAHDSFJKDFLJKASHADJKGHETRGUIERN I'M SO PANICKED.
Okay done. I'm going to turn on my giraffe lamp and attempt to read the horror that is Joel and Kat Set the Story Straight.
oh my mum. I don't know why she spontaneously bought a party cake but it sure helps to EAT NICE THINGS when I'm feeling down. The sprinkles are so large. It's like a different brand of party cake not as per usual. Oh the excitement of a different brand of party cake !
I think my parents finish up their almost-nightly work on Hairspray/Mary Poppins in a couple months. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. I like being alone a lot. But with that said I've kind of become a more lonely person over the past 6 months or something that they've been working, I guess.
I am going to go finish my sad book and hopefully dream of Gabe Saporta. Good night.
I feel so disgustingly sick. And awful. And depressed. And oh god I can't breathe through my nose. That just tops it all.
Today was so confusing. I could complain about things but you can just refer to Grace/Frani's blogs. Also I don't have a mac because we didn't print off the form because I am uninformed. So I'm stuck with this absolute-shittest-computer-ever for a couple more days.
I like year elevens. They're so lovely. And hey look ! I didn't die this morning ! Katherine is actually a good driver. Except for the truck, which almost spoiled her good run. Damn trucks.
I feel absolutely like the most negative person saying this, and it's probably because when I'm sick I become impossibly more saddened by things, but I didn't see half of my dear chums today since we're so intimidated by senior school and a place to sit. I'mjustridiculouslyparanoidthatourgroupwillsomehowsplitupbutwhatever ffff
When I got home I felt awful and sick and mildly jolly from a short yet entertaining car ride with Frani.
Then I read this book which has made me so much more upset than a book ever has. Except when Dumbledore died. Ohmygod the tears.
I could go through what this book is about, and why it upsets me moreso than the coolest old wizard to ever live dying, but then people would ask me questions and then I would lie and then of course people would be generally confused as to what my problem is with this book. I refuse to go into detail but let's just say it bears significant relevance to my life.
SO I'M GOING TO END THIS BLOG HERE LOL XOXO ~*~*~*~*~
STRANGE DAY
although nice because, y'know, birthday n' all.
just a quick couple of highlights. from such a dull day.
1. People who said nice things because it was my birthday n' junk
2. Filling out CVs for Grace and Goldy.
"Also he has a stylish haircut. Which is nice. An added bonus if you want to employ him!"
3. Drawing on a piece of paper with Grace which is practically the meaning of our friendship
4. IS THERE ANY GROUP BETTER THAN OUR MENTOR GROUP? I THINK NOT
5. I like some new kids. I think. I hope we get supah kewl new additions to our group. BUT NOT TOO MANY BECAUSE YOU'LL STEAL EVERYONE AWAY FROM ... US
that didn't make sense but ok
Yay fifteen. Fucking finally. Now I don't feel small anymore.
There are such ridiculous parades in the city. Australia Day really has no point. It's like the one day of the year where we can pretend we are actually really multicultural and we're not secretly racist. Except not secretly. All the other countries think we're racist. Which is bad.
Aside from today's irrelevant public holiday, and the fact that I broke Tenzin's string WITHOUT MEANING TO I SWEAR, this was a pretty good day considering I've spent every other Australia Day worrying about something relative to school or sitting around not achieving anything. I like Caitiln's friends a lot.
LAST DAY OF THE HOLIDAYS WELL SPENT, CAMILLE.
I'm not looking forward to tomorrow at all
not even for the birthday aspect of it.
I can't find any of my picks and my computer keeps crashing every five minutes and I can't be bothered with school and people make me upset and I just want to lie in bed forever k.
I don't want to go to school again. Screw whatever I've been saying. School can go fuck itself. I can't be bothered doing anything and ok I'm tired and grumpy and my back hurts and I'm complaining so much and if I were you I'd be really irritated by Camille right now.
I'm going to lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and pretend I'm asleep. bye
Katherine's totally going to pick me up in her car. Since she's old.
I might die since she's at the wheel but HEY WHATEVER FREE RIDE
So today was lovely. Especially since I scored the two best books in the world and epic cards and $60 altogether. Also weird naked dolls...Fiona. But now my room is sah messy thanks to Ryan pulling shit out of everywhere. Cheers cunt.
Easily my favourite birthday party :)
...since I don't really remember the past 14. awksssss
I woke up and realised I'd just had a dream about Gabe Saporta being my best friend.
We went for bike rides through parks and everything.
No big deal guys.
Lol'd because my last three posts have somehow been relevant to Cobra Starship.
I FEEL SO SICK BUT WHATEVER
YEAH COMPUTER OFF. PARTY ON LOLZZZ ~*~*~*~
totally didn't just make a reference to forever the sickest kids there
except I'm not going to turn my computer off
because that'd be silly
and I'd be bored. Lol. Okay. I made cupcakes guys. They're amazing.
I feel sick. I ate icing for breakfast. Can I die now okay
I have this awful feeling that out of everyone, Willy K will turn up at my house first. Out of everyone. So I'm kind of hoping someone else will come first so there won't be awkwardness and I won't sob uncontrollably k bye
Damn my mother and her cooking at this late hour. Why must she be so kind and stay up late cooking food for tomorrow? fuck. I can't sleep with this delicious pizza scent wafting through the house.
That said, I hope mother dearest is nice enough to let me go to Cobra Starship.
Or I will sob uncontrollably.
Srslyyy.
I can't believe I never watched this video earlier. Cobra Starship are seriously just the best.
Just. Oh my god.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfCYv82xOno&feature=channel
I could watch it a million times over.
Gabe Saporta unfff <3333
that thirty second snippet of their new song
is just
asjdkfjlhkfghfkhgyuirshgjfaggjkfdghf oh my GOD IT'S SO GOOD I WANT TO CRY
I pretty much brought it upon myself I guess. But I hate that they don't ~*~*~understand meee~*~*~*~ blah blah blah teen angst blah blah blah asjhdfklsfdf
I kind of can't decide whether my parents try way too hard
or just pretend that they know me really well and they care and stuff
whatever yo'
In all seriousness I'm so sick of everything. I wish I could just move out right now and break off all connections with my family. Except maybe send a hilarious letter to my brother every now and then. Just because. He's my brother. And he's cooler than the rest of my family, believe it or not.
I laughed for ten minutes oh my god. Turns out my brother occasionally does fun crazy things on my laptop ! How hilarious.
I HAVE WIRELESS GUYS
I'M NEVER LEAVING THE HOUSE AGAIN
LUV LYF
Max: You know those Mac N' Cheese things you get from the supermarket?
Me: ...yeah?
Max: They're not very nice. At all.
Me: LOLWTF YES THEY ARE. The Kraft one?
Max: Yeah. I had one the other day. Except I bought four. I was really hungry. And I just put them all together in this big bowl and it kind of developed into this -paste- sort of mixture... and then I just felt really sick. It was like eating my own vomit.
Me: ... bit too far mate
Camille left blogger open while she went to the bathroom.
luv from maxieee xxxxx
that makes me happy lots
my dearest brother is buying me wireless internet at this moment
so pumped yo
I'm so sick of awkwardly sitting at the kitchen on facebook ajsdlkfhashdgfjksf
I'M GOING TO DRAW A MASSIVE DRAWING TODAY
AND IT'LL BE SO BIG
EVERYONE WILL HAVE TO STAND REALLY FAR BACK TO TAKE IT ALL IN
IT'LL BE SO IMPRESSIVE
LIKE YEAH
and miss Iris is coming over tomorrow
so, y'know, I'm not going completely insane. S'all good. Kind of.
this is upsetting
I feel a ridiculous loneliness due to not seeing any of my friends for two mere days after being with them for like, a week.
Pierce The Veil cannot keep me company forever.
Also I want to leave the house because I have this awesome backpack with foxes on it. I need someone to appreciate it.
I could totally go a spoon train right now. MUSIC CANNOT HUG ME WHILE I SLEEP OMGGGGG
ok wow lonely I need to get out of the house more often
+ my laptop's fan started billowing out smoke just then.
Fuck school so hard for stopping me from getting a computer by tomorrow.
I CAN'T WAIT TEN DAYS. FUCK
it's so attractive I almost cried
today I had an epiphany
I must get a kitten/multiple kittens this year. they're so cute n' small and then they grow up and they're still cute and yeah ajskdlsakjdf
I played super old school playstation games with my brother today and rocked out a little too hard to Pierce the Veil for a long period of time. And I ridiculously improved my mad drawing skillz. Totally moved on from anime drawing. Ew.
I'M GOING TO BUY A CAT OK. AND NAME IT SOMETHING AMAZING. AND YOU'LL ALL BE SO JEALOUS.
Just sayin'.
Very likely to be some of the most wonderful five days of my life
I don't even know how to put into words how good it was
and how nice it was because we were all so close to each other
like, with no fighting or anything
and how funny Dead Silence is
and how adorable Anton's dog is
and how amazingly happy I felt every day
and how many awesome dreams I got
and how we talked about somewhat meaningful things really late at night
and how lovely it is to swim down there and just generally be on the beach
and how I could just forget about everything else in the world
and how fucking much I will miss Anton.
if he saw my url
hi everyone I feel sad this is my third blog
OHWELL IT'S SAH MUCH FUN
